ever think to yourself “how did my life get so random and ridiculous?”

i actually sat in a meeting today with school officials from my graduate program and was told that i was REQUIRED to put Snuggling on my resume for my internship. They say that otherwise, i’m not providing “full disclosure”. but there are plenty of jobs that you don’t put on your resume.. snuggling is definitely one. its distracting and it detracts from the interview. when people hear that i snuggle professionally, they don’t understand. i didn’t understand for years. it took me three years from the time i thought of the idea til when i actually implemented it cuz i thought i was a little crazy, my family thought i was crazy, and all my friends thought i was crazy. but i LIKE snuggling. i love snuggling. my clients seem to enjoy snuggling. no one is being injured or harmed in any way. people are participating in a mutually agreed upon arrangement on a completely voluntary basis. i’m rambling. i don’t care.

i want to go to school. i want to learn. i think this is a crazy, mixed up world if a woman’s education can be interrupted because she cuddles. i put my body next to the bodies of other people and we lay there, holding each other. there is nothing evil or creepy. its cozy and fun. i’m happy.

when this first started, they said that they wanted me to sign a contract agreeing not to snuggle anymore if i were going to be permitted to return to the program. then they realized that they had absolutely no authority to impose such ludicrous limitations so they retracted this requirement and have created numerous other hoops for me to jump through. i’m going to write about all this ridiculousness and then i’m going to feel better.

its 1:13am but i don’t care. i don’t have to wake up in the morning.

my sheets are in the dryer. i don’t wanna make my bed. i’m too tired. maybe i should just do what these people tell me to do and see what happens. Put “Professional Snuggler” on my resume. i guess thats how change happens. someone decides its okay to do something “crazy” and then others are like “hey, that’s not crazy– that’s a good idea!” i like that Ben Harper song where he says he’s gonna make the world a better place with his own two hands. Yeah, i’m gonna make the world a better place with my own two hands too. we all are.

i’ve learned way more from snuggling in these past few months than i would have learned if i had been in school. i’m self-directed in my education.