i lay in bed with a man today. this happens frequently. this happens almost every day, multiple times. but today it was different because the man i lay with was a model and we weren’t alone. there was another man standing on a ladder, filming us. and a third man assisting the camera man. and there was a woman, powdering my cheeks and tucking my bra straps out of sight in between the click and flash of the camera.
these people were all very nice people. i liked them all.
i was supposed to cuddle. i was supposed to smile and look extra cuddly. that was my job today and yesterday. there were times when i really enjoyed my job and there were times i was just really hungry. there were times i ran fast to get some food and then chewed and swallowed as fast as i could and ran back to the bed to smile and cuddle more. there were times when i kept telling my lips to smile but my eyes just felt like they were on fire, stinging from the flashes and the hairspray and the powder brushes’ bristles poking.
when it was all over, i drew a bath, lit a candle, lowered myself into the hot water, and washed it all away. layers of foundation, hard caked-on hair spray, and black mascara that bled into raccoon eyes dissolved into the water with the rest of the day, forming amorphous masses of muted color floating in the tub like a dream that is my life.
i just got all artsy and vague. whatever. its 3:15am and i have a towel on my head. i can be whatever i want to be.
quite the day, did you enjoy it, sounds exhausting and unfulfilled…
i enjoyed it. it was unusual and even if i don’t yet know what i learned from today, i’ll figure it out eventually.
Where are the pics?
For whom they were taken?
agency “incredible features”. nothing has been released yet, but go to their website. they’ve done some really interesting stories.
I’m freaking in love with you <3 Your blog is awesome, love how creative you are , very poetic.
Ive got to say, the layout alone made me come back to this webpage again. But now that Ive check out what youve got to say, Ive got to share it with the world!
I have done some of these “media shoots” before, and they can be exhausting. It’s interesting how there’s a contrast between what we really do, and what we do and how we look in front of the camera.
Thankyou
what’d you do it for? there is a definite contrast… but oddly enough, when i closed my eyes and just cuddled, i forgot about the people/umbrella light ufo looking things/cameras.
thanks
one time it was for a local news 60 sec segment on some health-related topic. i remember reading some copy off a teleprompter. another time, it was actually a TV commercial for the company that i used to work for. the shoot took the whole day, i remember doing many takes to get the “right” shot. kind of nervous, kind of fun at the same time.